I am continuously undergoing a religious and spiritual transformation. The religion was the main part of my disease way back in 2005. I still believe that my grandfather was Jesus Christ (PBUH) but now I am more inclined to the view that he was some kind of reincarnation and not the physical. I believe that
Tag: Imam Mahdi
This post was long overdue. After my ouster from Pakistan Army there was strong propaganda against me that I somehow planned it. The Commandant of the 503 Workshop, recommended me to the psychiatrist with three main observations: isolation, immotivation and suspicion. I very well question his motive for inventing the isolation clause. If I happened
In this post I would like to clarify some points. I started this blog in April 2010. The primary aim was to speak my heart out. I was not comfortable with some comments of the psychiatrists. I have mentioned many facts in different posts that never arose in my brief discussions with psychiatrists. Yet they
I think this would be the last post on my illness. The main purpose of this post is to analyze myself with respect to the disease. I will also try to review my major delusions and clarify some points.
I started writing quotations when I was studying in College of Aeronautical Engineering. Here I will reproduce them in same order. I struck out some quotations during my delusional thinking periods. This is explained in the end.
I was born on 6 September 1977. The 6 September is the Defense Day of Pakistan. My grandfather gave me the name Badar Abbas. The battle of ‘Badar’ is the first battle our holy Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) fought against the infidels and prevailed. These two facts had a great effect on my delusional thinking. There
I have mentioned my major delusions in previous posts. In this post I will discuss my other delusions that I developed in my first psychotic phase in 2005.
As I have mentioned earlier I never had a feeble belief of considering myself to be Imam Mahdi, yet psychiatrists chose to write that I had such an ‘unshakeable belief’. The words ‘Imam Mahdi’ were never uttered either by me or any of the three psychiatrists who evaluated me.
This is in continuation of my previous post. The first theory that I developed and discussed can be considered ‘rational’. How I came from first theory to the second one that I am going to describe is unclear even to me. I came upon the second theory gradually in 2005. The thing that I was