I am continuously undergoing a religious and spiritual transformation. The religion was the main part of my disease way back in 2005. I still believe that my grandfather was Jesus Christ (PBUH) but now I am more inclined to the view that he was some kind of reincarnation and not the physical. I believe that
As I mentioned earlier that I had the major relapse of the disease in 2009. I developed various delusions in addition to my old ones. In this post I will discuss some main delusions of my relapse. Three Dajjals/Antichrists Dajjal is an evil figure to appear before Judgment day directly comparable to Antichrist. According to
I was born on 6 September 1977. The 6 September is the Defense Day of Pakistan. My grandfather gave me the name Badar Abbas. The battle of ‘Badar’ is the first battle our holy Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) fought against the infidels and prevailed. These two facts had a great effect on my delusional thinking. There
As I have mentioned earlier I never had a feeble belief of considering myself to be Imam Mahdi, yet psychiatrists chose to write that I had such an ‘unshakeable belief’. The words ‘Imam Mahdi’ were never uttered either by me or any of the three psychiatrists who evaluated me.
This is in continuation of my previous post. The first theory that I developed and discussed can be considered ‘rational’. How I came from first theory to the second one that I am going to describe is unclear even to me. I came upon the second theory gradually in 2005. The thing that I was