This was the most stressful events of my life. It happened in end 2003 while serving in Quetta. I know it is bit odd to discuss service matters openly, but this incident had profound effects on my thinking. In this post I will copy the text of the ‘redress of grievances’. The redress was submitted
I will finish the religious delusions part by mentioning my thoughts on one important major sign of Last hour i.e. the Beast. As I narrated in an earlier post that I came close to declaring myself the Beast. Major signs are events of extraordinary nature prophesied by our Prophet to take place before Last Hour
As I have mentioned earlier I never had a feeble belief of considering myself to be Imam Mahdi, yet psychiatrists chose to write that I had such an ‘unshakeable belief’. The words ‘Imam Mahdi’ were never uttered either by me or any of the three psychiatrists who evaluated me.
The admission that I considered my grandfather to be Jesus Christ (PBUH) was perhaps my biggest statement. I came upon the conclusion rather suddenly and remained extremely secretive about it. I did not express it from my mouth until I got admitted in hospital. Firstly I expressed this opinion to my father in August 2005.
This is in continuation of my previous post. The first theory that I developed and discussed can be considered ‘rational’. How I came from first theory to the second one that I am going to describe is unclear even to me. I came upon the second theory gradually in 2005. The thing that I was
This is in continuation of my earlier post i.e. Five Facts. It is about the second incident that occurred in PMA, Kakul. This is an ideal case in which I will narrate how I came from rational thinking to delusional thinking. The “list” was the main source of delusions of both grandeur and persecution.
These are the three visual hallucinations that I experienced in 2009. Visual hallucinations are one of the main symptoms of schizophrenia. They were the main cause of the second psychotic phase. I don’t have any religious/political agenda. I just want to explain how I came from rational thinking to delusional thinking. I don’t have two
In this post I will narrate the incidents briefly that were main sources of delusional thinking. I will analyze them in more detail in future posts. (1) It was 8 January 1996. I was in Kohat undergoing aptitude tests for induction in Army. Far away, my grandfather aged 80 placed his stick, Jinnah cap and
According to English psychiatrist Anthony Storr, “Schizophrenics are probably the most isolated people in the world. They are also quite remarkably alike.” This blog is an attempt to break that rather self imposed shell. Schizophrenia is a severe mental illness. It affects a person’s behavior, emotions and thinking in an unprecedented way. It is characterized