I started writing quotations when I was studying in College of Aeronautical Engineering. Here I will reproduce them in same order. I struck out some quotations during my delusional thinking periods. This is explained in the end. Advertisements
“Schizophrenia cannot be understood without understanding despair.” R. D. Laing “Schizophrenics are probably the most isolated people in the world. They are also quite remarkably alike.” Anthony Storr “If you talk to God, you are praying; if God talks to you, you have schizophrenia. If the dead talk to you, you are a spiritualist; if
This is in continuation of my previous post. In that post I discussed my main delusions during my relapse. In this post I will narrate my other delusions and little incidents responsible for my delusional thinking. One of the most stimulating cause was visual hallucinations that I discussed in this post. I was not in
As I mentioned earlier that I had the major relapse of the disease in 2009. I developed various delusions in addition to my old ones. In this post I will discuss some main delusions of my relapse. Three Dajjals/Antichrists Dajjal is an evil figure to appear before Judgment day directly comparable to Antichrist. According to
I had the first break of the disease in 2005. I remained admit in hospital for a year. I had the major relapse of the disease in 2009. I avoided getting admitted in hospital this time. One of the main features of this relapse was that I thought that even if I had the disease,
As I discussed in previous post that I somewhat self diagnosed my disease. The initial feelings were of both hope and despair. Initially I was very disturbed. The 2006 was very depressed year for me. The initial ray of hope was the life of Nobel Prize winner John F Nash. I read his interview from
The year 2005 was most psychotic year of my life. Without doubt 2006 was most depressive year of my life. The year 2007 was spent in coming to term with the illness. This post is an attempt to describe all those important but dormant years.
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I was admitted in Hospital on 24 August 2005. Officially I remained in hospital for over a year. I received indoor and outdoor treatment. This was one of the most testing times for me. It was a crucial period of my life in every respect.
I was born on 6 September 1977. The 6 September is the Defense Day of Pakistan. My grandfather gave me the name Badar Abbas. The battle of ‘Badar’ is the first battle our holy Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) fought against the infidels and prevailed. These two facts had a great effect on my delusional thinking. There