I was supposed to have 2 passing out parades. I had none. It was not a coincidence. The first was supposed to be in PMA Kakul in end 1996. This was responsible for the event of my life as discussed here. I was made to stand out by the so-called Indian Spy SM Farman. There
Category: Schizophrenia
This is going to be bit delusional. These are facts not fiction. I do not know the name of two doctors. The name of the third doctor is Brig (R) Mowaddat Hussian Rana who was awarded Sitar-e-Imtiaz for his ‘contributions’ in 2013. I developed this point of view in my delusional phase after my diagnosis
This is an exclusive post describing my reasons of disliking the EME College and interpretation of events. I know not everyone will agree with my interpretation. I will be taking a few names also. Any one who is named directly or indirectly may clarify in comments. If they want to counter accuse then they should
I reported in 10 Army Aviation Quetta as OC LAD (Light Aid Detachment) in end 2002. I remained there till mid 2004. Raheel Sharif was then Brig and acting as COS (Chief of Staff) XII Corps. The Corps Commander’s name was Lt Gen Shahid Hamid. The country was under iron grip of Pervez Musharraf. The
Managing schizophrenia is a significant challenge. The immediate people effected are the patient himself and his family. Though I do not consider myself to be 100% cured, yet I feel that I am content with my life. It is almost 10 years since I was admitted in hospital for my first break. I have learned
Schizophrenia is a complicated disease. It takes a considerable time to recover. I have never heard of it before. Though I have watched the Hollywood movie ‘A Beautiful Mind’ before my diagnosis, but I never bothered to know the name/pronunciation or nature of the disease. It was primarily my interest in Nobel prizes. It took
Getting an MS was my dream when I was admitted in hospital in 2005-6. When I was officially out of Pakistan Army in Dec 2006, I was in very desperate situation. The diagnosis of a severe mental illness had shattered me. Schizophrenia plays various tricks with its victims as it will become apparent. I tried
This post was long overdue. After my ouster from Pakistan Army there was strong propaganda against me that I somehow planned it. The Commandant of the 503 Workshop, recommended me to the psychiatrist with three main observations: isolation, immotivation and suspicion. I very well question his motive for inventing the isolation clause. If I happened
In this post I would like to clarify some points. I started this blog in April 2010. The primary aim was to speak my heart out. I was not comfortable with some comments of the psychiatrists. I have mentioned many facts in different posts that never arose in my brief discussions with psychiatrists. Yet they
I think this would be the last post on my illness. The main purpose of this post is to analyze myself with respect to the disease. I will also try to review my major delusions and clarify some points.
